I will not hesitate in fact I will make it short and simple. This past week has had so much wrapped into it. One thing that is certain is that I pushed hard to develop my rhythm. Through it all it became a natural movement and I lost five pounds. I know that this journey/Lifestyle change has had many ups and downs. I also know that I cherish each moment involved, because I am going to remember them all.
It was late and the house was silent I was the only one awake. I knew that there were things I needed to get done and this was the only time that I could do them. It was a bit after 11pm I recall looking at the clock and then the phone rang.
I remember looking at the phone and thinking that it would be best for me to ignore and return the call in the morning. I figured that it would allow me to complete what I needed to do.
One thing is certain I am overjoyed that I took the time to answer the phone. It was a friend whom I have known for so many years, so I typically don’t mind the late-night calls. We embarked on a call that lasted 3 hours and so much was said.
I find it amazing and wonderful to have such a friend who is so wrapped around God no matter their own present circumstances. I am thankful for the obedience in the call and the conversation we had that night well into the morning.
So much came out of that conversation and one thing is certain. This journey/Lifestyle Change which I have embarked on is important in so many ways.
Out of that conversation came so much about my journey and my health. I am thankful that God loves me and cares so much that he places my name on someone’s heart and we can have important conversations that lead to so much clarity and change.
I know that my journey is about to take a step up I am about to UPGRADE this journey. If you’re reading this and you have been here to support me thorough this so far, I thank you so much it is greatly appreciated, and nothing has gone unnoticed.
I began this journey in September of 2021 yes, I have had my ups and I have also had my downs. I have had very proud moments, yet I have had setbacks and roadblocks as well. For what it is worth I have not given up instead I am pushing forward and evolving as God directs my change.
I must admit that at this point I am very proud of me. I have come a long way from being the person I was. Out of energy, out of breath, struggling to make it up my flight of stairs. Great things happen when you decided that you’re ready to make a change for the better.
Lately I have been looking at my body in the mirror a lot. I am seeing some beautiful changes. My sides have gone in and although my stomach is not where I want it, I love the fact that it’s going down. Last year I used to look at myself and I will tell you that sometimes it was a bit hard.
I had let my body get completely out of shape and I had put on so much weight. I started this journey weighing 456 pounds and I was hurt but more so determined to change and get this weight off of me.
I have struggled since starting this journey because I have a scale that goes up a little bit over 400 pounds. Each time I stepped on the scale it read the word ERROR. You see for the longest I tried lying to myself and saying that perhaps the scale was just broken. Reality was that I had outgrown the actual scale.
I figured that I would wait until I went back to the doctor in June to weight myself again. It’s just that there was something inside of me saying that I cannot wait that long and since you’re following this journey you should not wait to hear about my progress either.
Since starting this journey I have contemplated buying a new scale that goes up to 500 pounds. I searched and searched but had a hard time finding one, and so I kept giving up. This evening was different I sat doing my worship and it was on my heart to look again.
This time I looked and found one for a very reasonable price. I am so excited to receive the scale and begin to track my progress with you all once a month. To anyone who is following this journey thank you I appreciate you all.
Growing up I was always that girl who was shy and afraid to really say or do much. I was so self-conscious and afraid of others’ views and opinions of me. Lately I have been stepping into this journey more than I could ever have imagined.
I have pushed past this journey more than I could ever know from how I dress, to posting my vlogs and workout videos on YouTube, even to the pictures and clips I post across social media.
I pray that one day my story and journey will inspire so many more to step out and step into themselves. I pray that it encourages so many to just go ahead and embark on that journey that they have been contemplating for so many years.
I want people to know that fear can only do as much as you allow it. Inhale the fresh air, feel the sun on your skin, and the breeze that brushes across your cheek. Thats life and it’s okay to live it loving yourself whole heartedly.
I might not be where I want to be, but I am overjoyed knowing that I am changing my overall lifestyle and creating healthy habits. I am letting go of all the negative ways and traits that I held onto my entire life the things that don’t serve me. I have carried this burden for far too long and it’s official it is time to let it go and live the way that God intended.
Last week taught me a lot but one thing that really stands out is this right here. There will be days when you feel as though you don’t want to do the thing or things that you have to do for your journey. I personally have had those days so trust me I know.
What matters is that in spite of how you feel you rise up against your personal feelings and do what it is you need to do. There have been days where I did not want to work out and I literally waited until the end of the day. At some point I reminded myself of why I embarked on this journey and how much it means to me.
On those days I find that sitting in silence, prayer, and worship helps me to get the motivation I need the most. In life we have choices that is always the same, but what matters the most is that we learn to appreciate who we are and embark on the path that we need without the fear of wondering what others think.
Embrace and love you that makes your journey worth more than you could ever know.
No matter what happens in life we adapt and push forward. I have been away from some time trying my hardest to figure this journey out.
I’ve lived a good portion of my life overweight. I guess what I had to grow into was a lifestyle change.
I feel as though each time I have tried to loose weight some distraction has managed to come along. In my past when life threw curveballs I typically missed and sat the game out.
This season is different because I am determined to win. I have been active with my Journey aside from life’s distractions.
It takes pure tenacity to see a lifestyle change all the way through. I have gotten back in the routine of Meal Prepping, weekly grocery hauls, and watching the foods that I eat.
November 10, 2021 7:59 am
I was sitting here helping my son with some of homeschooling before the day really starts. For some reason I found myself asking God what he wanted me to say. You see perhaps you may have noticed that aside from yesterday I was absent from blogging for roughly a week.
There are times in life when God will have you sit down and remain silent so to speak, and well that was the case here. I was able to post on other platforms however I was told to remain silent here. Yesterday I broke my silence with a scripture well the entire chapter really and it was Psalm 18 (kjv).
Today I feel as though God is leading me to tell my truth so perhaps someone needs to hear this.
For years I ran out of fear I knew that both the enemy and his workers of iniquity were trailing me. I am thankful though that although I went through this ordeal God never left my side even when I felt all alone surrounded by darkness.
I was terrified of snakes and somehow the enemy always tossed that fear in face I mean literally. One day I was at work and someone came to my job with a huge yellow snake.
So what did I do of course I ran from there as well and not long after I left my job. Leaving stopped nothing because the torment continued. Darkness, despair, demons you name it because I saw it and lived through it. During this time I asked, I yelled, and I cried out of fear, tiredness, and loneliness I wanted to know why this was happing to me.
There were times when the enemy would speak to me telling me things that he knew would place more fear in me. I longed to tell people what I was going through but truth was it was witchcraft I mean down right voodoo which was being performed against me.
There was a moment when my neighbor came to my door and handed me her phone. I was puzzled because one I never had her phone number, and two how would anyone think to contact me on a neighbors phone. When I answered it was a lady with a strong accent she told me “He said no matter what you sit there until he is ready for you”.
I remained puzzled for years after that incident happened but it was not until recently that I realized my neighbor was one of individuals praying against me by praying I mean witchcraft. So much happened during these years that I was being tormented but one thing remains that God was always there with me.
I never understood why I was allowed to go through all of this each time I came across someone who was into pure darkness and I knew that they were praying against me. I saw things that most would be terrified of and at some point God helped to build me up so that I would not fear as he commands us to FEAR NOT.
There is so much more to this because even after I left that job which I had held for over ten years. I landed a job DTLA (Down Town Los Angeles) and as you may have guessed it yes I was followed there as well. Strange things were happing such as the light on the inside of my car being turned on. I was finding things in my mailbox, a black onyx stone which was placed at the end of my drive way and the list goes on.
I am thankful that God taught me not to fear even if it took me years to learn this lesson. I learned to see with spiritual eyes and the importance of fighting in the spiritual realm. Our prayer life and worship life is important and something that we must do daily.
I don’t know who needs to hear this but you are not alone and I don’t care what the world says because I understand what is real. As followers of God we must learn to pray without ceasing, we must worship God endlessly.
This is a battle where Gods strength is needed more than ever so let us put on the full armor daily and not abide by the worlds standards. Remember that for every two lies there is one truth God.
If no one has told you God loves you and so do I
Darkness does not have to prevail over and in your life because God is the ultimate source of light. At the end of it all even darkness will bow to God and worship him.
So let us humbly fall to our knees before his throne…………
November 8, 2021 9:18 pm
Taken from BibleGateway
Psalm 18King James Version
18 I will love thee, O Lord, my strength.
2 The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.
3 I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
4 The sorrows of death compassed me, and the floods of ungodly men made me afraid.
5 The sorrows of hell compassed me about: the snares of death prevented me.
6 In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.
7 Then the earth shook and trembled; the foundations also of the hills moved and were shaken, because he was wroth.
8 There went up a smoke out of his nostrils, and fire out of his mouth devoured: coals were kindled by it.
9 He bowed the heavens also, and came down: and darkness was under his feet.
10 And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly: yea, he did fly upon the wings of the wind.
11 He made darkness his secret place; his pavilion round about him were dark waters and thick clouds of the skies.
12 At the brightness that was before him his thick clouds passed, hail stones and coals of fire.
13 The Lord also thundered in the heavens, and the Highest gave his voice; hail stones and coals of fire.
14 Yea, he sent out his arrows, and scattered them; and he shot out lightnings, and discomfited them.
15 Then the channels of waters were seen, and the foundations of the world were discovered at thy rebuke, O Lord, at the blast of the breath of thy nostrils.
16 He sent from above, he took me, he drew me out of many waters.
17 He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them which hated me: for they were too strong for me.
18 They prevented me in the day of my calamity: but the Lord was my stay.
19 He brought me forth also into a large place; he delivered me, because he delighted in me.
20 The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands hath he recompensed me.
21 For I have kept the ways of the Lord, and have not wickedly departed from my God.
22 For all his judgments were before me, and I did not put away his statutes from me.
23 I was also upright before him, and I kept myself from mine iniquity.
24 Therefore hath the Lord recompensed me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in his eyesight.
25 With the merciful thou wilt shew thyself merciful; with an upright man thou wilt shew thyself upright;
26 With the pure thou wilt shew thyself pure; and with the froward thou wilt shew thyself froward.
27 For thou wilt save the afflicted people; but wilt bring down high looks.
28 For thou wilt light my candle: the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness.
29 For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall.
30 As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him.
31 For who is God save the Lord? or who is a rock save our God?
32 It is God that girdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect.
33 He maketh my feet like hinds’ feet, and setteth me upon my high places.
34 He teacheth my hands to war, so that a bow of steel is broken by mine arms.
35 Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy right hand hath holden me up, and thy gentleness hath made me great.
36 Thou hast enlarged my steps under me, that my feet did not slip.
37 I have pursued mine enemies, and overtaken them: neither did I turn again till they were consumed.
38 I have wounded them that they were not able to rise: they are fallen under my feet.
39 For thou hast girded me with strength unto the battle: thou hast subdued under me those that rose up against me.
40 Thou hast also given me the necks of mine enemies; that I might destroy them that hate me.
41 They cried, but there was none to save them: even unto the Lord, but he answered them not.
42 Then did I beat them small as the dust before the wind: I did cast them out as the dirt in the streets.
43 Thou hast delivered me from the strivings of the people; and thou hast made me the head of the heathen: a people whom I have not known shall serve me.
44 As soon as they hear of me, they shall obey me: the strangers shall submit themselves unto me.
45 The strangers shall fade away, and be afraid out of their close places.
46 The Lord liveth; and blessed be my rock; and let the God of my salvation be exalted.
47 It is God that avengeth me, and subdueth the people under me.
48 He delivereth me from mine enemies: yea, thou liftest me up above those that rise up against me: thou hast delivered me from the violent man.
49 Therefore will I give thanks unto thee, O Lord, among the heathen, and sing praises unto thy name.
50 Great deliverance giveth he to his king; and sheweth mercy to his anointed, to David, and to his seed for evermore.
November 1, 2021 7:11 am
First and foremost Happy New Month and I pray that it is your best month ever. Happy writing and many more memories and stories to be shared I for one am excited to read them all.
Yesterday we woke up to the smell of food and my mom having somewhat of a medical crisis. We drove out to Urgent Care understanding that she has underlining medical issues I wanted to get it checked out. Let me tell you I was excited as we drove through the parking lot only to see that it was empty. I mean we all know that an empty parking lot means that it wont be that crowded.
I was only surprised, shocked, and then not so much after we hit the corner and were greeted with a line outside of the other end of the parking lot.
The sight was actually a bit sad once you thought about it and took it all in. So many people not feeling well and needing help and this thought made me think of how great full we are to have Gods comfort and guidance. It was decided that instead of waiting in urgent care all day we would stand fast on our activated faith and leave.
As we drove away my mom sighed with a moment of relief because the only thing she wanted at that moment was to make it to church on time. That very thought in my mind spoke loud and clear at the amount of faith and dedication my mom has to God and I love it.
As the day went on I was constantly reminded of my mom and her health issues. Even though she suffers from pain and the very knowing that things are going on. My mom is always up and ready to do what needs to be done, and I never hear her say no she pushes through. It is in the process of that very doing that she looks at me and says “Meka things have to be done, and mamma is not here to do them.”
Thank God for mothers even when they are gone their strength and teachings still remain within us and the things that we do.
If no one has told you God loves you and so do I
October 31, 2021 8:35 am
It’s that day come on we all know what today is, but its also my brothers birthday so happy birthday to him. I woke up this morning to my mom banging pots and pans in the kitchen. The smell of fresh made chicken and dumpling’s, a fresh baked homemade cake, and my mom humming to an old school worship song. Mind you all that it was not even 6am yet, but that is my mom and I love her.
To make sure I asked her if I really heard her humming or if I made that part up. She said that she was and that made me happy because I know my mom. Good to know that I actually heard her humming and that it was not my imagination.
Chicken and dumpling’s is one of my brothers favorite meals in fact my mom makes it for him every year. I however well lets just say that I would not miss it if it were not on the table. If I had to have it I loved the quick version that my grandma always made. Sorry but I cant give you all the recipe I mean I tried but my mom made me take it out so now that its final lets move on.
Though it is early and were full of laughter of memories, and making memories things happen. I went and sat on my moms bed as she had already made her way back to her room. As she looked up I quickly took notice of her eye.
My mom is seriously a trooper and she continues to march on. I am certain that she never said anything because its my brothers birthday. I looked at my moms eye and please do not underestimate when I tell you that her eye is literally blood shot red. It does not look good, so I stopped the conversation we were having and I prayed. Understanding that God knows our every footstep and knowing that he understood today before we did.
Well you all here goes today I have placed the results of this outcome in Gods hands now I am taking her to Urgent Care.
If no one has told you God loves you and so do I.
October 28, 2021 10:44 am
The other day I vlogged a soup recipe. Let me tell you this soup is everything.
Not only does it taste good, but it’s good for you. Loaded with vegetables, barley, yams, and fish.
In fact two days later I served myself up some. The flavors in this soup were better than before.
If no one has told you God loves you and so do I.