For Years I sat

November 10, 2021 7:59 am

I was sitting here helping my son with some of homeschooling before the day really starts. For some reason I found myself asking God what he wanted me to say. You see perhaps you may have noticed that aside from yesterday I was absent from blogging for roughly a week.

There are times in life when God will have you sit down and remain silent so to speak, and well that was the case here. I was able to post on other platforms however I was told to remain silent here. Yesterday I broke my silence with a scripture well the entire chapter really and it was Psalm 18 (kjv).

Today I feel as though God is leading me to tell my truth so perhaps someone needs to hear this.

For years I ran out of fear I knew that both the enemy and his workers of iniquity were trailing me. I am thankful though that although I went through this ordeal God never left my side even when I felt all alone surrounded by darkness.

I was terrified of snakes and somehow the enemy always tossed that fear in face I mean literally. One day I was at work and someone came to my job with a huge yellow snake.

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Taken from Google images

So what did I do of course I ran from there as well and not long after I left my job. Leaving stopped nothing because the torment continued. Darkness, despair, demons you name it because I saw it and lived through it. During this time I asked, I yelled, and I cried out of fear, tiredness, and loneliness I wanted to know why this was happing to me.

There were times when the enemy would speak to me telling me things that he knew would place more fear in me. I longed to tell people what I was going through but truth was it was witchcraft I mean down right voodoo which was being performed against me.

There was a moment when my neighbor came to my door and handed me her phone. I was puzzled because one I never had her phone number, and two how would anyone think to contact me on a neighbors phone. When I answered it was a lady with a strong accent she told me “He said no matter what you sit there until he is ready for you”.

I remained puzzled for years after that incident happened but it was not until recently that I realized my neighbor was one of individuals praying against me by praying I mean witchcraft. So much happened during these years that I was being tormented but one thing remains that God was always there with me.

I never understood why I was allowed to go through all of this each time I came across someone who was into pure darkness and I knew that they were praying against me. I saw things that most would be terrified of and at some point God helped to build me up so that I would not fear as he commands us to FEAR NOT.

There is so much more to this because even after I left that job which I had held for over ten years. I landed a job DTLA (Down Town Los Angeles) and as you may have guessed it yes I was followed there as well. Strange things were happing such as the light on the inside of my car being turned on. I was finding things in my mailbox, a black onyx stone which was placed at the end of my drive way and the list goes on.

I am thankful that God taught me not to fear even if it took me years to learn this lesson. I learned to see with spiritual eyes and the importance of fighting in the spiritual realm. Our prayer life and worship life is important and something that we must do daily.

I don’t know who needs to hear this but you are not alone and I don’t care what the world says because I understand what is real. As followers of God we must learn to pray without ceasing, we must worship God endlessly.

This is a battle where Gods strength is needed more than ever so let us put on the full armor daily and not abide by the worlds standards. Remember that for every two lies there is one truth God.

If no one has told you God loves you and so do I

Darkness does not have to prevail over and in your life because God is the ultimate source of light. At the end of it all even darkness will bow to God and worship him.

So let us humbly fall to our knees before his throne…………

Enlarged My Steps

November 8, 2021 9:18 pm

Taken from BibleGateway

Psalm 18King James Version

18 I will love thee, O Lord, my strength.

The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.

I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.

The sorrows of death compassed me, and the floods of ungodly men made me afraid.

The sorrows of hell compassed me about: the snares of death prevented me.

In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.

Then the earth shook and trembled; the foundations also of the hills moved and were shaken, because he was wroth.

There went up a smoke out of his nostrils, and fire out of his mouth devoured: coals were kindled by it.

He bowed the heavens also, and came down: and darkness was under his feet.

10 And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly: yea, he did fly upon the wings of the wind.

11 He made darkness his secret place; his pavilion round about him were dark waters and thick clouds of the skies.

12 At the brightness that was before him his thick clouds passed, hail stones and coals of fire.

13 The Lord also thundered in the heavens, and the Highest gave his voice; hail stones and coals of fire.

14 Yea, he sent out his arrows, and scattered them; and he shot out lightnings, and discomfited them.

15 Then the channels of waters were seen, and the foundations of the world were discovered at thy rebuke, O Lord, at the blast of the breath of thy nostrils.

16 He sent from above, he took me, he drew me out of many waters.

17 He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them which hated me: for they were too strong for me.

18 They prevented me in the day of my calamity: but the Lord was my stay.

19 He brought me forth also into a large place; he delivered me, because he delighted in me.

20 The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands hath he recompensed me.

21 For I have kept the ways of the Lord, and have not wickedly departed from my God.

22 For all his judgments were before me, and I did not put away his statutes from me.

23 I was also upright before him, and I kept myself from mine iniquity.

24 Therefore hath the Lord recompensed me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in his eyesight.

25 With the merciful thou wilt shew thyself merciful; with an upright man thou wilt shew thyself upright;

26 With the pure thou wilt shew thyself pure; and with the froward thou wilt shew thyself froward.

27 For thou wilt save the afflicted people; but wilt bring down high looks.

28 For thou wilt light my candle: the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness.

29 For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall.

30 As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him.

31 For who is God save the Lord? or who is a rock save our God?

32 It is God that girdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect.

33 He maketh my feet like hinds’ feet, and setteth me upon my high places.

34 He teacheth my hands to war, so that a bow of steel is broken by mine arms.

35 Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy right hand hath holden me up, and thy gentleness hath made me great.

36 Thou hast enlarged my steps under me, that my feet did not slip.

37 I have pursued mine enemies, and overtaken them: neither did I turn again till they were consumed.

38 I have wounded them that they were not able to rise: they are fallen under my feet.

39 For thou hast girded me with strength unto the battle: thou hast subdued under me those that rose up against me.

40 Thou hast also given me the necks of mine enemies; that I might destroy them that hate me.

41 They cried, but there was none to save them: even unto the Lord, but he answered them not.

42 Then did I beat them small as the dust before the wind: I did cast them out as the dirt in the streets.

43 Thou hast delivered me from the strivings of the people; and thou hast made me the head of the heathen: a people whom I have not known shall serve me.

44 As soon as they hear of me, they shall obey me: the strangers shall submit themselves unto me.

45 The strangers shall fade away, and be afraid out of their close places.

46 The Lord liveth; and blessed be my rock; and let the God of my salvation be exalted.

47 It is God that avengeth me, and subdueth the people under me.

48 He delivereth me from mine enemies: yea, thou liftest me up above those that rise up against me: thou hast delivered me from the violent man.

49 Therefore will I give thanks unto thee, O Lord, among the heathen, and sing praises unto thy name.

50 Great deliverance giveth he to his king; and sheweth mercy to his anointed, to David, and to his seed for evermore.

Yesterday’s Update

November 1, 2021 7:11 am

First and foremost Happy New Month and I pray that it is your best month ever. Happy writing and many more memories and stories to be shared I for one am excited to read them all.

Yesterday we woke up to the smell of food and my mom having somewhat of a medical crisis. We drove out to Urgent Care understanding that she has underlining medical issues I wanted to get it checked out. Let me tell you I was excited as we drove through the parking lot only to see that it was empty. I mean we all know that an empty parking lot means that it wont be that crowded.

I was only surprised, shocked, and then not so much after we hit the corner and were greeted with a line outside of the other end of the parking lot.

The sight was actually a bit sad once you thought about it and took it all in. So many people not feeling well and needing help and this thought made me think of how great full we are to have Gods comfort and guidance. It was decided that instead of waiting in urgent care all day we would stand fast on our activated faith and leave.

As we drove away my mom sighed with a moment of relief because the only thing she wanted at that moment was to make it to church on time. That very thought in my mind spoke loud and clear at the amount of faith and dedication my mom has to God and I love it.

As the day went on I was constantly reminded of my mom and her health issues. Even though she suffers from pain and the very knowing that things are going on. My mom is always up and ready to do what needs to be done, and I never hear her say no she pushes through. It is in the process of that very doing that she looks at me and says “Meka things have to be done, and mamma is not here to do them.”

Thank God for mothers even when they are gone their strength and teachings still remain within us and the things that we do.

If no one has told you God loves you and so do I

So This Happens

October 31, 2021 8:35 am

It’s that day come on we all know what today is, but its also my brothers birthday so happy birthday to him. I woke up this morning to my mom banging pots and pans in the kitchen. The smell of fresh made chicken and dumpling’s, a fresh baked homemade cake, and my mom humming to an old school worship song. Mind you all that it was not even 6am yet, but that is my mom and I love her.

To make sure I asked her if I really heard her humming or if I made that part up. She said that she was and that made me happy because I know my mom. Good to know that I actually heard her humming and that it was not my imagination.

Chicken and dumpling’s is one of my brothers favorite meals in fact my mom makes it for him every year. I however well lets just say that I would not miss it if it were not on the table. If I had to have it I loved the quick version that my grandma always made. Sorry but I cant give you all the recipe I mean I tried but my mom made me take it out so now that its final lets move on.

Though it is early and were full of laughter of memories, and making memories things happen. I went and sat on my moms bed as she had already made her way back to her room. As she looked up I quickly took notice of her eye.

My mom is seriously a trooper and she continues to march on. I am certain that she never said anything because its my brothers birthday. I looked at my moms eye and please do not underestimate when I tell you that her eye is literally blood shot red. It does not look good, so I stopped the conversation we were having and I prayed. Understanding that God knows our every footstep and knowing that he understood today before we did.

Well you all here goes today I have placed the results of this outcome in Gods hands now I am taking her to Urgent Care.

If no one has told you God loves you and so do I.

Soup (pictures)

October 28, 2021 10:44 am

The other day I vlogged a soup recipe. Let me tell you this soup is everything.

Not only does it taste good, but it’s good for you. Loaded with vegetables, barley, yams, and fish.

In fact two days later I served myself up some. The flavors in this soup were better than before.

If no one has told you God loves you and so do I.


October 28, 2021 7:38 am

I’m sitting here in worship thankful for all that God has done and is doing. I’m overjoyed with the process itself surrounding this journey.

Every moment of cheer, each year I’ve cried and will cry, every let down, and every moment of excitement and happiness. I’m great full for it all.

Teaching my son the importance of giving God thanks as his first fruit of the day. I thank God for every bit of this journey the good and the bad, because it all helps In shaping and molding me.

If no one has told you God loves you and so do I.

Cooking With My Son

October 27, 2021 6:45 pm

I have been loving this journey I’m on. Even more I love the fact that it’s really taking shape with my son.

I’ve incorporated a fun fact for each day of homeschooling Monday through Friday.

Life gets busy especially with school, so I decided to surprise him each day with something fun and outside of his school curriculum.

Some days it’s a cool coloring sheet, a word search, painting, researching something cool.

Other days I surprise him by placing a recipe on his desk. He really loves those days. I try my best to find recipes that can be both a treat and somewhat healthier.

The other day he made this oatmeal that he loves check it out.

Oatmeal with no butter or sugar instead we topped it with honey.
More toppings for his oatmeal walnuts, banana, and chocolate
Top view of his oatmeal
Bowl came from dollar store

If no one has told you God loves you and so do I.

Heavy Day of Vlogging

October 25, 2021 4:15pm

Wow today has truly been a day yet I have enjoyed every bit of it. I woke up to prayer, worship, and bible study. The weather from today has been enjoyable because we do not get it much, and lets be honest a little bit of rain, clouds, and cold weather can really be enjoyable this time of year.

I started my vlogging early because I was filming healthy recipes, and one thing that I have mentioned many times already. Food has been a spot of darkness for me, because my relationship with food was abusive. Now with that being said I have begun to come up with recipes based on things that I love and vlog about it.

Today I did just that and I included my son as well, and he loved it. For breakfast I cooked up some oatmeal, but this time the toppings were everything. My son absolutely loved this oatmeal having forgotten what it taste like since it has been a long time.

I also made a soup that we will have for lunch this week and let me tell you my son did not waste time eating it. I am amazed at how much the both of us are changing, and I am happy that we are doing it together. I pulled out my things and filmed the entire process.

Pictures and the link to my vlog will be coming soon and I cant wait to show you all.

If no one has told you God loves you and so do I.

A Seed To Run

October 24, 2021 11:07 am

A few years ago we used to visit a walking trail for the community. It was one of those walking parks with the exercising equipment, and a track for running.

Yesterday God reminded me of something. You see back then when we were going I paid no attention to it, but God was planting a seed.

There was a plus size girl who used to run the track. In fact my aunt used to point her out, because she was amazed and proud of the girl for doing so.

Well the past few days God has reminded me of this girl. I can see it so clearly as though yesterday was today.

God planted a seed back then without me realizing that it was planted. On this journey I was doing my battle ropes, Tahitian dancing etc.

God spoke and told me to run…………

I am a servant of Gods and so I will run………

If no one has told you God loves you and so do I

ChickPea Tuna Pictures

For this recipe I used what I had. Two cans of chickpeas, green onions, red onion, dill, lime juice, tahini, black pepper, and mustard.

When I made my second batch I left out the onions, and green onions (heart burn). I also added two teaspoons of mayonnaise.

Finished product you can always add mayonnaise if you want it creamier.

If no one has told you God loves you and so do I.