I will not hesitate in fact I will make it short and simple. This past week has had so much wrapped into it. One thing that is certain is that I pushed hard to develop my rhythm. Through it all it became a natural movement and I lost five pounds. I know that this journey/Lifestyle change has had many ups and downs. I also know that I cherish each moment involved, because I am going to remember them all.
It was late and the house was silent I was the only one awake. I knew that there were things I needed to get done and this was the only time that I could do them. It was a bit after 11pm I recall looking at the clock and then the phone rang.
I remember looking at the phone and thinking that it would be best for me to ignore and return the call in the morning. I figured that it would allow me to complete what I needed to do.
One thing is certain I am overjoyed that I took the time to answer the phone. It was a friend whom I have known for so many years, so I typically don’t mind the late-night calls. We embarked on a call that lasted 3 hours and so much was said.
I find it amazing and wonderful to have such a friend who is so wrapped around God no matter their own present circumstances. I am thankful for the obedience in the call and the conversation we had that night well into the morning.
So much came out of that conversation and one thing is certain. This journey/Lifestyle Change which I have embarked on is important in so many ways.
Out of that conversation came so much about my journey and my health. I am thankful that God loves me and cares so much that he places my name on someone’s heart and we can have important conversations that lead to so much clarity and change.
I know that my journey is about to take a step up I am about to UPGRADE this journey. If you’re reading this and you have been here to support me thorough this so far, I thank you so much it is greatly appreciated, and nothing has gone unnoticed.
I began this journey in September of 2021 yes, I have had my ups and I have also had my downs. I have had very proud moments, yet I have had setbacks and roadblocks as well. For what it is worth I have not given up instead I am pushing forward and evolving as God directs my change.
I must admit that at this point I am very proud of me. I have come a long way from being the person I was. Out of energy, out of breath, struggling to make it up my flight of stairs. Great things happen when you decided that you’re ready to make a change for the better.
Lately I have been looking at my body in the mirror a lot. I am seeing some beautiful changes. My sides have gone in and although my stomach is not where I want it, I love the fact that it’s going down. Last year I used to look at myself and I will tell you that sometimes it was a bit hard.
I had let my body get completely out of shape and I had put on so much weight. I started this journey weighing 456 pounds and I was hurt but more so determined to change and get this weight off of me.
I have struggled since starting this journey because I have a scale that goes up a little bit over 400 pounds. Each time I stepped on the scale it read the word ERROR. You see for the longest I tried lying to myself and saying that perhaps the scale was just broken. Reality was that I had outgrown the actual scale.
I figured that I would wait until I went back to the doctor in June to weight myself again. It’s just that there was something inside of me saying that I cannot wait that long and since you’re following this journey you should not wait to hear about my progress either.
Since starting this journey I have contemplated buying a new scale that goes up to 500 pounds. I searched and searched but had a hard time finding one, and so I kept giving up. This evening was different I sat doing my worship and it was on my heart to look again.
This time I looked and found one for a very reasonable price. I am so excited to receive the scale and begin to track my progress with you all once a month. To anyone who is following this journey thank you I appreciate you all.
Growing up I was always that girl who was shy and afraid to really say or do much. I was so self-conscious and afraid of others’ views and opinions of me. Lately I have been stepping into this journey more than I could ever have imagined.
I have pushed past this journey more than I could ever know from how I dress, to posting my vlogs and workout videos on YouTube, even to the pictures and clips I post across social media.
I pray that one day my story and journey will inspire so many more to step out and step into themselves. I pray that it encourages so many to just go ahead and embark on that journey that they have been contemplating for so many years.
I want people to know that fear can only do as much as you allow it. Inhale the fresh air, feel the sun on your skin, and the breeze that brushes across your cheek. Thats life and it’s okay to live it loving yourself whole heartedly.
I might not be where I want to be, but I am overjoyed knowing that I am changing my overall lifestyle and creating healthy habits. I am letting go of all the negative ways and traits that I held onto my entire life the things that don’t serve me. I have carried this burden for far too long and it’s official it is time to let it go and live the way that God intended.
Last week taught me a lot but one thing that really stands out is this right here. There will be days when you feel as though you don’t want to do the thing or things that you have to do for your journey. I personally have had those days so trust me I know.
What matters is that in spite of how you feel you rise up against your personal feelings and do what it is you need to do. There have been days where I did not want to work out and I literally waited until the end of the day. At some point I reminded myself of why I embarked on this journey and how much it means to me.
On those days I find that sitting in silence, prayer, and worship helps me to get the motivation I need the most. In life we have choices that is always the same, but what matters the most is that we learn to appreciate who we are and embark on the path that we need without the fear of wondering what others think.
Embrace and love you that makes your journey worth more than you could ever know.