I woke up this morning with this burning desire in my heart. I know that God has placed me on this journey to loose weight and better my health. I am now understanding that this is also a journey of self in general.
The more I spend my time in worship and prayer and studying scripture for some reason the more I find myself well by myself. I find that I want to spend time in solitude of course I have my son whom I love dearly and I am not talking about being away from him.
This is becoming a journey that is beginning to blossom each day that passes and each week I realize that God is directing me down this path. This week for instance God has challenged me to commit a full five days straight of working out. No matter what is going on around me, no matter the obstacles that are tossed my way. I am committing to five straight days Monday through Friday of working out.
Familiarity With Myself…………
In this time I am forced to cross boundaries that for whatever reason have been placed. I am forced to walk into what I know as the unknown but I know that God will never leave me nor forsake me because his word has promised me so.
In this time I am forced to push myself harder than I have before and even more so I cannot give up nor can I give in. God is a God who speaks and directs if only we listen. It is up to us at the end of the day if we choose to have ears and hear. I have had this long standing relationship with food that has not been the best.
I abused this relationship and for years I took it for granted while neglecting the proper relationship with both my health and body. Things are starting over from scratch and a foundation is being laid. This is a foundation that I choose to pass on to my son in hopes that he will pass it on to his children one day.
So this week God has instructed me to workout Monday through Friday, and this week God has reminded me to choose my foods wisely and incorporate healthy choices and I intend to do so. In my past I would have worried about sharing this in all honesty.
Darkness had such a hold on me but even greater is that God had an even firmer hold and darkness us under his feet. I am reminded as I type this as scripture says and perhaps someone reading this at the moment needs to be reminded that when God sets us free we are free.
Never be afraid to step into your purpose……..
Never be afraid of getting to know yourself……..
It’s okay to start over by building a foundation………
Foundation started and rooted with God is firmly planted on good soil…….
I embarked on this Self Health Journey. This time it has so much more meaning and purpose.
I went through years of darkness and torment and in a sense I let myself go. Crazy thing when your fighting for your life and freedom in the spiritual realm some things just don’t matter because in the moment your fighting to survive.
I know deep inside that I’m not the only one. I know deep inside that many are held captive right now even if it’s by their own thoughts and judgments that they can’t achieve.
Once you’ve gone through so much darkness sometimes the hardest part of it all is understanding that it’s done and that the fight has already been won. Victory belongs to God and God alone.
I find myself putting so much time and effort into spending as much time with my son creating memories. This is something I’ve always strived to do, however at times the enemy moves in quickly like a raging flood trying to take, take, take.
Our joy, our peace, our happiness…….
So yesterday my son had training and for that two hours I was in awe watching him having fun. Im always amazed by my son I love him so much. He was exercising pushing himself and giving it his all.
I loved how he didn’t care who was around him. The only thing that mattered to him was doing what he showed up to training for.
Giving it his all…….
In life we must learn to show up and whatever the task God has given us we give it our all knowing that no matter what we are covered by God.
Today I woke up with intentions of doing battle ropes as my workout. I told myself that no matter what I was going to get it done.
Although the morning was still early it was hot out. I was wearing black leggings and a sweatshirt with a tank underneath.
With each step I took I tried to think of an excuse that would allow me to just get in the car and drive away without doing my workout.
Suddenly I was reminded of how I had already asked God for the strength and perseverance to push through to show up and show out.
Needless to say I pushed through and continued with my workout I got it done. Now that the day is over and night has come.
God is reminding me that I asked him to help me push through. God reminded me that he’s not going to give up on me so I can’t give up on myself.
1 John 4:4King James Version
4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.
Taken from BibleGateway
So I decided to create a YouTube Channel. The nerves that filled my stomach when thinking about filming myself and showing it on YouTube.
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