Weigh In

This week I embarked on another part of my journey to better my health, loose weight, and improve my fitness levels.

Day five of my journey enhancement, and I am eight pounds down. I started this week weighing 439 pounds, and today I weighed in at 431 pounds.

Never give up because with God all things are possible.

John 8:36 King James Version (KJV)

36 If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.

Turn The Negative Into A Positive

One thing I have learned the hard way is that not everyone who stands before you will be for you.

Whatever our personal journey in life is we have to understand that a snake can never change who it is.

God is amazing and this journey itself has taught me so much about following his word and leaning not on my own understanding.

Anyone can smile in your face, and secretly hate your loyalty and ability to bounce back from a struggle.

No matter the case it’s important to remember that God’s words are true.

Isaiah 54:17 King James Version (KJV)

17 No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord.

I’m on this journey with a purpose.

It’s okay to be me

This morning I woke up different. After getting myself together and ready for my morning walk I didn’t bother putting on a wig, or searching for fabric to put on a head wrap.

I thought about a conversation I had with a parent from my son’s school yesterday. She gave sweet words of wisdom that I really took to heart.

In so many words she explained that it’s okay for me to love myself and appreciate me for who I am. Yes these are facts that I already knew, but her sincerity in her words spoken really touched my heart and my thoughts.

I started this journey because I wanted to better my health, loose weight, and improve my fitness level. In fact this journey is turning out to be much more deeper than what I imagined.

For the first time in a long time I was able to look in the mirror, and tell myself that I’m enough. I mean I don’t need to put on some wig, or mound on the makeup to make society appreciate and value me.

Reality is that I have to value myself more than enough to express that I am enough.

No this journey is not coming to an end. In fact it’s only Beginning, and my pursuit to better my health, loose weight, and improve my fitness level just got even stronger.

This much is true I am very greatful for the parent who thought to express her thoughts and have a heart to heart talk.

Your words will always be inspiring thank you.

Crying while snacking

The struggle is real but then again so is my growth. I set out to change and with God’s help I intend to do so.

I’m certain there will be many temptations, yet what really counts is how I deal with them.

I can choose to secretly give in, and fool myself by acknowledging the fact that no one’s looking. This thought in itself is a setup, because only time will tell.

Or I can seek God for strength and guidance during my moments of extreme temptation.

I walked into the store to get a snack. I wanted raw unsalted almonds but they were out. I picked up a small bag of pistachios and thought I was on my way.

Looking to my right I noticed a huge candy bar which happened to be my favorite. To top it off it only cost one dollar.

I told myself that I was stronger than that, but my mind didn’t want to hear it this time. As I was in line waiting to check out my mind kept feeding me reasons why I should give in.

I stood still prayed and asked God for the strength to be content with my pistachios.

I did it but when I got to the car I found myself wanting to cry. I’m sure that over time making these choices will get easier.

Meal Proportion

Never could I have imagined the amount of work, knowledge, wisdom, guidance, and determination that goes into this journey.

No matter what I am dedicated to making this work, and being successful.

I am greatful for everything that I am learning, and I take non of it for granted.

I have been blessed enough to learn the importance of meal Proportion, and how a balanced meal throughout the day plays a key role in my journey.

I’m on a personal journey to better my health, loose weight, and improve my fitness level. With God on my side I can and will accomplish this.

Brown rice with fresh tomatoes, bell peppers, parsley, oregano, Olive’s, kale, feta cheese, egg whites. Served with fresh tomatoes and pickled red onions.
Meal prepped dinner my brown rice minus the kale, and egg whites. Steamed broccoli, and herbed chicken sausage.

Eating for life….

I’m certain that everyone can understand the struggle being real. When you’ve grown up eating to satisfy your personal cravings.

Things are different now and will continue to do so. Today I had a sandwich on Ezekiel bread, spinich, onions, guacamole, and 32 Oz’s of water.

Every action, step, and decision matters.

With God all things are possible.

Taking back my life

I no longer want to live my life in secret. Moving around soundless and barely looking up as I move through crowds of people.

I don’t want to be the individual who sits by while watching others motivated by life walk into a gym or a local park giving their workout all they’ve got.

I can’t afford to just casually wonder into a fast food chain, and order whatever I want. While not thinking about the amount of calories I’m taking in.

No longer will I sit in bed binge watching some program I most likely have no business watching while eating pizza, chips, and junk food at the same time.

You see I’m on this journey and a huge part of it is taking back my life. Swapping out the old, and bringing in the New.

Moving away from fear

I used to be afraid of what people thought of me, how people saw me, and what people said about me.

I went through a time of constant trials, hardships, battles, and was forced to walk through it as crowds of people watched me pass by with every broken step I took.

I can’t help but to think of all the things which transpired getting me where I am today.

All of the times I was vialated and never spoke up, the bullying that took place. The things that helped to break me down.

Now that I’m a little older, and I’ve been through some things. I’ve grown and learned not to allow the thoughts or actions of others to bring me down.

In fact I’ve learned the importance of not allowing other people to have such control over me. I’ve learned the very importance of not allowing people to control the way I see or carry myself. So I no longer move or operate in fear, I move in grace knowing that I have a chance to live.

Too fat for it to work……

I woke up got myself together I felt pretty. Being overweight can sometimes make you feel bad about yourself. It has this ability to make you feel less than.

Maybe it’s the glances you receive while in public, or the snickering you here behind your back in a restaurant.

Whatever it is can sometimes be powerful and daunting. This day was even more daunting, because trying to loose weight is challenging in itself. I guess I just was not prepared for what I heard.

I’m at the checkout counter trying to purchase ankle weights for my walk. The owner looks and says “This is not going to help your too fat for it to work.”

Words can be hurtful but they can also motivate.