One thing I have learned the hard way is that not everyone who stands before you will be for you.
Whatever our personal journey in life is we have to understand that a snake can never change who it is.
God is amazing and this journey itself has taught me so much about following his word and leaning not on my own understanding.
Anyone can smile in your face, and secretly hate your loyalty and ability to bounce back from a struggle.
No matter the case it’s important to remember that God’s words are true.
Isaiah 54:17 King James Version (KJV)
17 No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord.
This morning I woke up different. After getting myself together and ready for my morning walk I didn’t bother putting on a wig, or searching for fabric to put on a head wrap.
I thought about a conversation I had with a parent from my son’s school yesterday. She gave sweet words of wisdom that I really took to heart.
In so many words she explained that it’s okay for me to love myself and appreciate me for who I am. Yes these are facts that I already knew, but her sincerity in her words spoken really touched my heart and my thoughts.
I started this journey because I wanted to better my health, loose weight, and improve my fitness level. In fact this journey is turning out to be much more deeper than what I imagined.
For the first time in a long time I was able to look in the mirror, and tell myself that I’m enough. I mean I don’t need to put on some wig, or mound on the makeup to make society appreciate and value me.
Reality is that I have to value myself more than enough to express that I am enough.
No this journey is not coming to an end. In fact it’s only Beginning, and my pursuit to better my health, loose weight, and improve my fitness level just got even stronger.
This much is true I am very greatful for the parent who thought to express her thoughts and have a heart to heart talk.
I used to be afraid of what people thought of me, how people saw me, and what people said about me.
I went through a time of constant trials, hardships, battles, and was forced to walk through it as crowds of people watched me pass by with every broken step I took.
I can’t help but to think of all the things which transpired getting me where I am today.
All of the times I was vialated and never spoke up, the bullying that took place. The things that helped to break me down.
Now that I’m a little older, and I’ve been through some things. I’ve grown and learned not to allow the thoughts or actions of others to bring me down.
In fact I’ve learned the importance of not allowing other people to have such control over me. I’ve learned the very importance of not allowing people to control the way I see or carry myself. So I no longer move or operate in fear, I move in grace knowing that I have a chance to live.