Saying Goodbye To My Toxic Thoughts….

I have spent the past 24 hours listening to motivational speakers. The sound of assurance, encouragement, and positive words have filled my spine. If ever I found myself in doubt or disbelief now I am sure.

Taking this journey has led me through many ups and downs but my feet are planted I’m standing firm and embarking on change.

I realized that I am tired of being my own worse critic, and that if I’m not approving all of me it’s up to me to change.

Starting this journey to better myself mentally, physically, and spiritually. I want a change and I am tired of living life in a false pretenses that I’m living my best life.

I’m diabetic, weigh of 400 pounds, a mother, sister, daughter, niece, cousin and to some a friend. Thank you to those who appreciate and accept me for who I am, but this journey is for me to better myself and become the best that I can be.

I know what it’s like to have people talk about you, laugh at you, point fingers, mistreat you, and smile in your face. I also know what it’s like to have people genuinely care about you and love you.

This is deeper than any of that because I have been stuck in bondage for so long. I’ve started diets lost a few pounds and then gained back so much more.

It’s much deeper than any of that. The thought of proving to myself that I have what it takes to embark on this lifestyle change and stick to it. The thought of showing my son that you can do anything if you put your mind to it and make it work.

I’ve been in darkness for far to long, and now I’m beginning to see the light. This is a journey that has begun from within me working its way outward because change begins within.

I want to be the person who can inspire those struggling because I come from experience. I want to be apart of and inspire change.

I’m tired of my old way of thinking. I’m tired of putting myself down. I’m tired of mentally getting in my own way by thinking I can never do it.

Change starts with me change starts from within.